i miss being little
when i was small i would always tell my dad that i’d want to be older, that i wanted to grow up and he’d always tell me that i was going to regret saying that and i never believed that but you know what? he’s right. while i wasn’t allowed to do almost anything i had absolutely no responsibilities in life and that’s a pretty good feeling. I didn’t know how fucked up the world was and i didn’t realize all of the decisions that would be put in my way.
growing up you realize that life is pretty messed up place and that no matter what you do you’re stuck. you have to try and make the best of what you have. at (almost) 19 years old I have to try and figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. i’m grown up and independent. i make decisions for myself and live my life almost on my own. it’s scary, it’s scary to think that in a few years i’ll be done with college and actually out on my own. it’s a really scary thought and i have no idea how i’ll be able to handle it…
